Pumping iron

Day 181

This is what I do while watching Dollhouse. It inspires to me to push myself because I have deluded myself into believing that if I lift enough weights, one day I will wake up with Eliza Dushku's body. Obviously, it hasn't happened yet. In this particular picture, I had just spent nearly an hour on the elliptical at the gym, got home and decided that wasn't good enough, so here we are with the free weights. At least I'm being productive with my excess energy.

We are not amused

Day 180

Today was crap. I can't even write about it because I don't want to further depress myself. I have to shake the mood, and flip it into something positive, which is absolutely doable. I just have to work through the bad feelings first.

Accessories

Day 179

I've said it before, and I'll say it again. None of my outfits are complete without cat hair.

Skin is a gift

Day 178

Putting on lotion is my favorite part of getting out of the shower. Not only am I clean, but now I get to put nice smelling moisturizer on my skin. I can't survive without moisturizer. My skin feels tight and weird without it. I can't touch things until I've moisturized my hands. My feet usually get put into fuzzy socks after the lotion so it will stay on longer. God forbid I run out of lotion at work. As someone who washes their hands every time they go to the bathroom, I need lotion directly after drying my hands. If I don't have any lotion, I'm hyper sensitive to the dry skin and there are certain things I can't touch. It distracts me until I'm finally able to get some lotion. Some might call it slightly obsessive. I call it survival.

Is it bed time yet?

Day 177

This is seriously all I've got right now. I'm pooped. I partied like the rockstar I was meant to be both Friday and Saturday nights. Then I spent the afternoon and evening today at Julia's 4th birthday party. I love my family, and my cousins' children bring me genuine happiness. But after about a dozen times of lifting Sienna to the top of the slide and helping her slide down, my arms were in danger of giving out. But when a 15 month old that cute looks at you and says, "I want slide," you do not say no. It is physically and mentally impossible to deny that child anything. I really feel that I was meant to be a mother, but I accept the fact that I probably never will be. That's cool though. As long as the rest of my family members keep having babies, I'll be happy.

Stand by me

Day 176

I'm always happy when Mike decides to make a guest appearance. He is someone who always gives me a sense of peace, calm, and stability. Not surprising, considering how long we've known each other and how well we know each other. I'm glad that after all these years we're still good friends.

And the beat goes on

Day 175

I decided that I hadn't been using my iHome nearly enough, so I've been making a point of watching less TV and listening to more music. I'm currently listening to my latest guilty pleasure song - "Just The Way You Are" by Bruno Mars. Even though he stole a Billy Joel song title and that's not cool (but I can't stand that particular Billy Joel song anyway), this song always brings a smile to my face. I can't help it - I just get lost in it. My music taste is so eclectic that it's almost scary.

Baseball + 1

Day 174

I seriously thought about this all day. I could not wait for the work day to be over because I knew I would be having a Friendly's date with Katie and Heather. I thought about what I would order for dinner, what kind of ice cream I wanted, and all the laughs the three of us would have. I would have liked to have been able to join them for zumba beforehand, but I was unable to make it. There was no way I was missing out on Friendly's though. I had a great time at dinner with them, and I look forward to more fun nights like this.

Muse

Day 173

I think my choice of dresses today was inspired by Toni. I hung out with her last night, and she was wearing a flowy skirt. She's also a textile designer, so this colorful pattern made me think of her. I bought this dress 2 years ago for Kate's bridal shower. I was still fat then, so now it has a vague muu muu vibe to it because it hangs funny in certain places. I was in no mood to change once I put the damn thing on, and it's still cute, so whatever. I pulled off the look and I got through the day. Mission accomplished.